"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step." -----Martin Luther King, Jr.
"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet,regardless of time, place, or circumstance.The thread may stretch or tangle,but it will never break."
- ancient Chinese belief

Thursday, August 5, 2010

A Big Day

Anothe iphone entry, so please excuse grammar, no caps, etc! After a very rough day yesterday, little miss June meili had a big day today!

*. Did peekaboo with Paul page and put your finger thru momma's ring page of pat the bunny.
*. She's become attached to a tiny stuffed bear; has been holding "bear bear" since gotcha day. This am, she rubbed it's paw on her forehead .. Then, she rubbed it on me! It was so sweet. Later in day, as I was snuggling her in my lap, she alternated rubbing the bear's paw on her, mine, and david's hand.
*. She has refused each of the three types of bottles with various types of beverages. She had also refused all solid foods ... Until today! This am, she ate lots of scrambled eggs and mashed watermelon (along with yogurt and some oatmeal!).
After her three hour nap today, she reached into a container of gerber puffs, pulled one out and, much to my surprise, ATE IT!! This was HUGE as she hadn't reached for anything to that point. She ate many more puffs.
*. She took a quick bath (with mama) -- without crying!!
*. Another concern was that she hadn't pooped. She was crying at one point today and (having read about other adoptive parents discovering this) had a hunch and sat her on the toilet. Lo and behold, that tiny baby pooped on the potty!
*. She has started to show a mommy attachment She's leaned to me, held arms out to me and today after I scooted away from her (I'm almost never too far away and usually holding her), we got a glimpse of something resembling a crawl!
*. Had some bites of a gerber biter biscuit.
*. She ate two entire jars of baby food before bed.
*. Still no semblance of a smile at us but much more "aware" today. Lot's of touching and looking around, etc. David disagees that it was a real or voluntary show of happiness, but I swear that I saw her smile for a split second at a stuffed animal in TrustMart.

Other miscellaneous:

*. She fell over from sitting. She has almost no core strength.
•. She is super-skinny, a new phemenon for a Gruskin baby.
•. A little levity helps us get through the days: when she eats yogurt or smushed food, it sometimes comes through her palate and out her nose. So, we've referred to her as "The Human Neti Pot". ( David says The boys are going to be jealous of that trick!)
*. We have no concept of time here. Days are so long; things that happened this morning feel like a week ago. We never have a sense of time of day or what meal (lunch, dinner) is next. It's quite bizarre.

Thank you for your comments, words of encouragement and prayers. We appreciate more than you know.

Precious Pictures




Wednesday, August 4, 2010

David's Poem

*Please, Smile*

I pray the life from which you came,
Had warmth and love and little blame;
That the profound sadness on your face,
Cries out for a yearned-for happy place;
That you heard a soothing lullaby,

That the laughter in you didn't die.

That although it may have been a while...
*something*, *somewhere* made you smile.

That someone rocked you; hummed a tune --
Before you had the name of June.

That the deep, black misery in your eyes,
Only reflects you don't surmise:
You're not being abandoned; you are reborn --
This time with ties that won't be torn.

That we have strength to show you how
To know the joy awaiting now.

Please, smile.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Sweet Pics of Junie and her Mom!




Junie Mei Gotcha Day and laptop on fritz!

Laptop won't even turn on now. Infernal machine! So update is from phone and thus must be terse. We KNOW you really want pics but unfortunately unable now.

Have had Junie 24 hours now and still don't know much about her. Not sure yet If she is just grieving or developmentally behind -- probably both.

We did discover she loves yogurt, sucks her thumb, prefers to be held by someone standing up and walking, and always wants to be holding things in her little hands. She's connected with a little teddy bear we brought and always tries to hold his little paw. Oh, she held a cookie all day yesterday.

Still waiting for her to smile or show even the remotest interest in play. Nothing so far.

She's fallen asleep in our arms a few times. You can imagine how great that feels.

We've never missed our boys more. We love you M J and T. Hang in there, we'll be home soon.

Love to all.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Gotcha Day for Junie Mei!

Horrendous computer situation is now complete breakdown and hampering ability to update. All will have to standby for pictures. Will try to forward couple iPhone shots.

Today was awesome and unfathomably emotional. Little Junie is precious, beautiful and alert, but she is in shock and breaking our hearts with the deepest, most profoundly sad eyes you've ever seen. Our biggest wish now is that we and our boys and you (our friends and family) can show her what happiness, comfort and the goodness of life are.

Have not been able to read your comments yet but thank you so much for your support and love. We are using every last drop of both!

Junie sleeping now on bed sucking thumb and holding Teddy bear hand with tiny fingers on other hand.

More when possible ...

Sunday, August 1, 2010

In Guangzhou!

We are in Gaungzhou! Our flight was smooth and the Garden Hotel is heaven! Nice, clean and fancy-shmancy! We have a nice BIG suite with a separate "family room" with a flat screen, sofa and chair, table and desk/office area! We love it. We also love the "feel" of Guangzhou. It feels so much more international with more familiar signs, KFC (told you Michael!), 7-11, Starbucks and Pizza Hut to name a few. I swore I would never eat at a chain when in China but the food has not been quite what I expected and the Big Mac tasted pretty yummy tonight! :)
We are meeting Junie tomorrow at 2:30! Our guide, Simon, is picking us up at 2:00. We need to make a few copies and get passport pictures made before then.
I am a bundle of nerves and almost started crying when we walked into our room and saw the crib set up! :) It is actually happening and I cannot believe it! I feel like I am walking around in a dream. Tomorrow I am meeting my daughter!
We found out that we will be meeting Junie with several other families. I think he said there will be about 40 people there together. Junie will be the youngest in our group. Another BAAS family is checking into the hotel tonight and I cannot wait to meet them!
I will post as soon as I can but am not actually planning on letting go of Junie for days! Maybe I'll have David blog...
Next time I'll be posting as a mother of 4!